Friday, December 13, 2013

Still kicking

Okay, I know I've been slack - I don't even know how long it's been since my last post.  I'm too embarrassed to find out.  Anyway...if anyone cares, I'm still here; still furiously studying.  But the good news is I'm down to my last two subjects and should be finished in 10 weeks!  Yes, I can hardly believe it myself...but it's not over yet.

I have always thought that when I got to the end of this degree, a light would stream down upon me from the heavens; all doors would open to me and basically I would have the confidence and the wherewithal to do whatever I desired.  Well, as I've recently figured out, there are two things wrong with that little fantasy.  Number 1, confidence doesn't come from just getting good grades.  I'm pretty sure it comes from within, not from without.  Number 2, in order to get exactly what you desire, you have to know exactly what you desire.  And at this point in my mature life, I still haven't the faintest idea what I desire.

My greatest desire has always been to get a university education; to don that cap and gown and wave my hard-earned degree at all the people who didn't think I could do it.  Now I'm 99% into fulfilling that desire, I don't know what's next.  I don't have that same feeling of just knowing that's what I really want to do. 

I suppose I'll just concentrate on these last two subjects, take a deep breath and hope another life-fulfilling desire pops up its beautiful head.   

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