Waking up the other morning after returning from our glorious Christmas by the beach, I declared, 'I hate it here' - which in woman speak means, 'I'm not happy'. True to male form, when I explained the house just represents being a slave to it and everyone in it, SH No. 1 said, 'Well, that's what life is all about'. Not the answer I was looking for but it certainly got me motivated to start doing something about it by myself.
So, as 2012 starts, I have decided it's enough waiting around for everyone else - I'm going to start doing what I want, when I want. From now on my life is going to revolve around getting my study finished and getting my body fit. I've returned to the gym regularly and have been extremely disciplined with the reading etc for my summer courses. And I'm not going to stay home and study anymore. The other day, I drove to the river, found a big shady tree and read for 3 wonderful hours, with nothing but the birds, some boats and the sunshine for company! Catching a ferry to the State Library is also on my list of places to study.
I'm going to start looking after myself more, which means a nightly ritual of cleansing and moisturising instead of plopping into bed exhausted; and being bothered to dress up and wear makeup. These are things I've neglected of late because I couldn't see the point - who'd look at me anyway?! But I've realised it's not about doing these things for other people - it's about doing them for me! I will draw the line at wearing makeup to the gym though! Everyone will just have to put up with me looking like death warmed up.
In the long term, I have this (wild, crazy?) dream of one day volunteering in an orphanage in Nepal. Why Nepal, I'm not sure - probably because it's the furtherest place I can think of but once I've finished my degree, I want to devote myself to children who are less fortunate, so a teaching degree might be next.
No, mine is not a hard life and I'm so grateful for everything I have, but it was beginning to be a ho-hum one. So that's it - 2012 is going to be all about me, me, me - The year of Caz.
Happy new year, everyone! May you all continue to have health, happiness and love in your lives. XX
So, as 2012 starts, I have decided it's enough waiting around for everyone else - I'm going to start doing what I want, when I want. From now on my life is going to revolve around getting my study finished and getting my body fit. I've returned to the gym regularly and have been extremely disciplined with the reading etc for my summer courses. And I'm not going to stay home and study anymore. The other day, I drove to the river, found a big shady tree and read for 3 wonderful hours, with nothing but the birds, some boats and the sunshine for company! Catching a ferry to the State Library is also on my list of places to study.
I'm going to start looking after myself more, which means a nightly ritual of cleansing and moisturising instead of plopping into bed exhausted; and being bothered to dress up and wear makeup. These are things I've neglected of late because I couldn't see the point - who'd look at me anyway?! But I've realised it's not about doing these things for other people - it's about doing them for me! I will draw the line at wearing makeup to the gym though! Everyone will just have to put up with me looking like death warmed up.
In the long term, I have this (wild, crazy?) dream of one day volunteering in an orphanage in Nepal. Why Nepal, I'm not sure - probably because it's the furtherest place I can think of but once I've finished my degree, I want to devote myself to children who are less fortunate, so a teaching degree might be next.
No, mine is not a hard life and I'm so grateful for everything I have, but it was beginning to be a ho-hum one. So that's it - 2012 is going to be all about me, me, me - The year of Caz.
Happy new year, everyone! May you all continue to have health, happiness and love in your lives. XX
Good for you! Do these things for yourself because you are worth it! I hope you get to go to Nepal someday; what an adventure that would be.
ReplyDeleteThanks Connie!
ReplyDeleteYou are a woman after my own heart! I'm not sure I'd want to go to Nepal, but I'm all about living for myself, and doing what keeps me sane. You go girl! Love love LOVE your attitude!
ReplyDeleteThanks Sandra, we have to look after ourselves in order to be there for everyone else!
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