I knew it would only be a matter of time before 'life' and its myriad of problems caught up with me. As many of you know, life with children and a partner can be quite challenging and in some respects, it gets more challenging as we all get older.
With one child just barely making it through year 12 and another one hot on her heels, formals (proms), semi-formals (semi-proms? I know, how ridiculous), football training, football games, football camps, drama classes, part-time jobs and only one person driving at the moment (yes, me), the house and study, it has all caught up with me. Despite constantly telling myself that I will keep going no matter what, even as late as my film class last night, I woke up this morning and decided that the only way I can keep my sanity is to take a 6 month leave of absence from uni. With an exam due next week and seemingly no time to even look at it as yet, as well as financial and academic penalty cut-offs also looming, I decided it was better to do it today rather than wish I had done it next week.
Yes, I feel extremely sad and p.o'd and more than a tad resentful but I refuse to be negative. It's not forever - I am not quitting and if it takes me five, six or more years to finish this thing, I will. I'm going to use the next 6 or so months to really be here for my children, to set some more goals and take the opportunity to focus on my health - to take up running again and another pilates class. Yes, I refuse to be negative...but that doesn't mean I will not occasionally dwell on my decision. I'm a Libran and no doubt I will swing to and fro and question my actions now and then.
That's life.
It sounds like you really need the break right now and I am sure when you go back, you will feel like a new person! Take care of you the very best you can and I hope that you don't forget to blog about what you are up to every once in a while!!!! At least we keep in touch on Facebook!!! ENJOY your break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I go back in 13 days. Grr).
ReplyDeleteThat's a shame, could you just do 1 module to keep you in touch with studying? Although I do understand the pressures of keeping the family running smoothly. It's like managing a business without the salary! I thought it would get easier as the kids get older, but the activities just change. I have a couple of years yet until the double prom, and we don't have semi formals over here. I am aware though, following all the fuss about Uni places etc that over the next two years it will be uni visits etc with E, while the other two are revising for GCSEs!
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your six months off & don't forget to go back
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That is so good that you are not quitting. And it is indeed better to decide now rather than later. I am glad that the University offers this. Keep us posted and let us know what is happening with you. I know I will be back to see. ::hugs::
ReplyDeleteThanks guys - I definitely won't forget to go back! I miss it already.
ReplyDeleteLike you I have just had to drop out for a semester, following a seried of family issues. I am half way through my degree, with two adult children, one doing HSC and a supportive but very busy husband. A break will allow you to get your energy back, and approach the rest of your degree with enthusiam. Smell the roses, enjoy your break, and good luck when you go back.
ReplyDeleteThanks Anonymous - it's nice to hear of someone else going through the same thing! I've had to try really hard to stay positive but am throwing myself into pilates and yoga! It makes me realise how much I really love uni and makes my goals all the more clearer. Cheers.
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