In years gone by, if everyone else was okay, so was I. If anyone needed me for anything, I'd don my cape and be there in a flash. Now I just want everyone to take responsibility for themselves. I don't want to be relied on and I can no longer suffer fools. I expect the highest standard of respect and if I don't get it, I'll turn my back. I've always been quick to forgive but now I find my heels digging deeper and deeper in the ground and I'm less willing to compromise.
I must admit, it does feel quite liberating but at the same time, it scares me a bit. At the moment I'm thinking I'll get the stresss of exams and essays of the next four weeks out of the way and I might book a little weekend away - on my own (and I'll get there via my pink Harley with matching helmet and a little maltese terrier called Suki sitting in the side car!). Mid-life crisis? I'm not sure!
Well, if bitchiness is the definition of a mid-life crisis, I have entered my 20th year of mine! =))) I don't think it is a mid-life crisis. School sucks the life force out of my body and mind! I am thrilled at the thought of getting my degree. Yes, kudos to me for being so determined. I know...I should be proud, I am doing things for me, I work so hard, yadda, yadda, yadda. At the end of the day, I still have 2+ years to go and I am the bitch of all bitches!!!!!! I feel guilty for being so miserable and absent from my kids' lives. But...I DO have 7 tattoos and I DID just get one last month and I DO want another huge one on my back...so maybe it IS my mid-life crisis. Which in that case, ignore all I just said!
ReplyDeleteStop by my site and we will share a cyber drink! Oh and by the way....I announced on my blog a few months back that I was done helping others! I know it sounds rude but sometimes I just need people to realize that I am not super-human. ;) It is a cliche, I know but take care of YOU!! And remember, everyday is one day closer to that degree!!!
http://non-trad-diaries.blogspot.com/2010/07/ive-been-cheated-and-i-am-pissed.html
I think I know what you're going through. I work my socks off to get the grades, and now in my fourth year I have less and less patience for the whingers who want it all without having to put in any effort. I'll help someone, but only after they've tried to help themselves.
ReplyDeleteThanks girls, I feel the same. I'm there when you absolutely need me (I love to help people)but if it's something you can do yourself - do it!!!!
ReplyDeleteOh, thank goodness, I thought it was only me! My BS tolerance level has dropped down to nothing, I don't suffer foosls, and I am much more likely to say what I think these days. Glad to hear that I'm not in this alone!
ReplyDeleteBelieve me it does get better. Once the children are all married and don't rely on you so much you do get to live your own life. I have 3 children all around the age of 40, 6 beautiful grandchildren and (dare I say it) 1 much loved great grandson.
ReplyDeleteWhen I decided to study for my degree at the age of 62 I could do so without being needed as much. Don't get me wrong I love them all but I it's nice to have the time to do what I want to
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I love my study and the fact that I have made so many friends of all ages at uni.
As for the mid life crisis I can relate to that as it happened about 15 years ago had catastrophic effects at the time but going through it and coming out the other side gave me a whole new perspective on life. So don't give up girls just go with it, don't fight it because as they say 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger'.
Yvonne
Thanks for your comments, Yvonne. I'm glad I'm not the only one who sometimes struggles. Congrats. on starting your degree later in life. Good luck with it all.
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