It's 3.00pm. It 's almost the end of an absolutely beautiful weekend, which I've once again missed - sitting at my laptop, frantically trying to spew out another assignement and I've only JUST realised it's April Fool's day! I feel quite sad that I've managed to miss another whole day, not having any idea of what's going on around me. Last weekend was equally as beautiful and I was equally as absent from my surroundings in my efforts to finish a literature essay.
Yep, it's the end of term. However, learning from previous mistakes, rather than throwing my laptop out the window in frustration (not literally, just really, really wanting to) and dropping a subject or withdrawing from the course altogether out of pure irritation, I've stuck with it. That doesn't necessarily mean it's a good thing.
On Thursday, I finished a 2,000 word literature assignment which was due on Friday; at the moment, I'm trying to finish a 2,000 word essay on media law for Thursday and at some stage I will have to complete a draft for an Australian history essay due also on Thursday. Now, anyone who has been following my blog will probably know I'm a little highly strung, so to have all this to do and to still be able to write about it is a huge feat for me. I don't know how I sound but I feel rather overwhelmed but determined to to do my utmost.
Unlike previous years where I've managed to complete all the course readings and allow myself two weeks for essays, this time round, I'm behind in most of the readings and am stuggling to keep my head above water. But I have a new outlook - I think I had an anxiety attack last week and felt as if I couldn't breath. That was an eye opener for me and I've come to the conclusion that if I try my best and don't do as well as I usually do, so be it. As a friend recently told me (Nicki from Diaries fo a neurotoc non-trad) after my meltdown over Summer semester exams (for which, by the way, I received a Distinction and a High Distinction!), 'acknowledge your worry, wrap it up and send it out into the universe' - or words to that effect. Anyway, it's my new motto - yes, I'm extremely busy; yes, I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed but it's almost Easter and I get a week's break and next term, all this stress will be forgotten as I make way for some new ones!
Think I'll take the dog for a walk and enjoy what's left of April Fool's day.
Yep, it's the end of term. However, learning from previous mistakes, rather than throwing my laptop out the window in frustration (not literally, just really, really wanting to) and dropping a subject or withdrawing from the course altogether out of pure irritation, I've stuck with it. That doesn't necessarily mean it's a good thing.
On Thursday, I finished a 2,000 word literature assignment which was due on Friday; at the moment, I'm trying to finish a 2,000 word essay on media law for Thursday and at some stage I will have to complete a draft for an Australian history essay due also on Thursday. Now, anyone who has been following my blog will probably know I'm a little highly strung, so to have all this to do and to still be able to write about it is a huge feat for me. I don't know how I sound but I feel rather overwhelmed but determined to to do my utmost.
Unlike previous years where I've managed to complete all the course readings and allow myself two weeks for essays, this time round, I'm behind in most of the readings and am stuggling to keep my head above water. But I have a new outlook - I think I had an anxiety attack last week and felt as if I couldn't breath. That was an eye opener for me and I've come to the conclusion that if I try my best and don't do as well as I usually do, so be it. As a friend recently told me (Nicki from Diaries fo a neurotoc non-trad) after my meltdown over Summer semester exams (for which, by the way, I received a Distinction and a High Distinction!), 'acknowledge your worry, wrap it up and send it out into the universe' - or words to that effect. Anyway, it's my new motto - yes, I'm extremely busy; yes, I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed but it's almost Easter and I get a week's break and next term, all this stress will be forgotten as I make way for some new ones!
Think I'll take the dog for a walk and enjoy what's left of April Fool's day.
Sounds like excellent advice from Nikki. Good to hear your back at Uni too.
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ReplyDeleteHello Caz, I am also a mother and wife who decided to go back to finish up my undergrad. So I totally understand how you feel. When I get overwhelmed I try to slow down. I know it should be the opposite but I have realized that slowing down and doing one task at a time let's me relax and finish up everything on time. I also imagine myself on graduation day :) Good luck with everything
ReplyDeleteThanks Hayat - good luck to you too!
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