I knew it would only be a matter of time before 'life' and its myriad of problems caught up with me. As many of you know, life with children and a partner can be quite challenging and in some respects, it gets more challenging as we all get older.
With one child just barely making it through year 12 and another one hot on her heels, formals (proms), semi-formals (semi-proms? I know, how ridiculous), football training, football games, football camps, drama classes, part-time jobs and only one person driving at the moment (yes, me), the house and study, it has all caught up with me. Despite constantly telling myself that I will keep going no matter what, even as late as my film class last night, I woke up this morning and decided that the only way I can keep my sanity is to take a 6 month leave of absence from uni. With an exam due next week and seemingly no time to even look at it as yet, as well as financial and academic penalty cut-offs also looming, I decided it was better to do it today rather than wish I had done it next week.
Yes, I feel extremely sad and p.o'd and more than a tad resentful but I refuse to be negative. It's not forever - I am not quitting and if it takes me five, six or more years to finish this thing, I will. I'm going to use the next 6 or so months to really be here for my children, to set some more goals and take the opportunity to focus on my health - to take up running again and another pilates class. Yes, I refuse to be negative...but that doesn't mean I will not occasionally dwell on my decision. I'm a Libran and no doubt I will swing to and fro and question my actions now and then.